Have been a Ultra busy and tiring week...
At last.. the two major projects are off from hand..
but there's still quite a bit of bits & pieces left that needs to be cleared..

Gonna be staying at Nel's house this sunday to finish up another project...
Doubt we'll be sleeping.. ):

Simply too exhausted to think of any other things...
but they are kept at the back of my head..
only that last sentence was clear to me.............
the rest are still in bits and pieces within me...
still puzzled and confused....

Current Location: At the Chalet.. on the bed... haha.. so comfy.. ^^

Dunno what's wrong with me.. ate alot alot today...hmm.. or maybe I should say I felt hungry very quickly today.. feel like a monster.. 

doin some stuff.. gonna join the guys downstairs soon when I'm done.. (:

Work at the roadshow was a pain..
but i got to know new friends though..

it's gonna be a busy week ahead again.. with all the projects, test and tutorials..
just as i'm typing... I realise that I haven done any of them yet.. shit.. omg..

though I'm having ppl around me.. giving me all the attention.. 
he's still inside me.. there's not a single day without him on my mind...
what to do.....? no idea... trying to keep myself and my mind occupied..

Boy.. I need a hug...ur hug.... I need you... 
I dialed ur number.. but have absolute no courage to press the green button..
How I wish you'll know how I feel...
and how I wish you're here right now.. with me..

Some things to be thankful about at the end of the day....

1. I'm very happy and glad that I have my 2 lovely sisters.. Both dotes me heaps.. and my Second sis.. always helping me whatever I got in deep shit.. and understands me the most..

I hate playing Roller Coaster!
It isnt Fun..!

I'm so pissed now.. 
and the anger is still building up..
I reali cant stand it.. when you keep complaining bout this and that..
Nothing seems to be goin in the way you want no matter what..
and is just like you never appreciate what others do for you either..

no matter what the people around you do...no matter how good...
often you'll still have some things to pick about and complain about..

you always want more and more...
have you ever spare a thought for the people around you...?
they are not superhumans..come on....

sometimes I seriously just feel that you're such a failure...
no doubt I always tell myself it's not ur fault and not within ur control..
but you just dun seem to care about how others feel..

you only care about what you want and how to get to what you want...
and making the full use of us...
I dun see love anywhere...
I tried to let go this hatred in me...
but you're revolving it up all again...

I cared bout you.. but you told ppl that I was the means of the cause..and I left you alone...
Having to beg you to see a doctor like i'm an idiot...
I brought you to the doctor... but yet you just refuse to take the medication and recover...
you compain that you feel giddy... I told you to take that medicine he gave to ease the dizzyness..
you ignored me... and said that there's nothing to eat so cant take medicine..

Fine.. with a head of high fever.. I bought lunch back.. you stood there refuse to eat until I repeated myself serveral times... ate a few mouth and left everything there... complaining that the food is tasteless and awful..

when she came.. you looked so awake and as though you weren't ill at all...
and honestly.. even she know i'm sick.. she showed much concern than you. 

and now.. you're complaining the things that she bought isnt useful... what else have you not complained about...?

just laze around and keep complaining that you're sick.. refuse to take your meal.. refuse to take the medication..I done all the things and talkings I could to get u up on ur feet...

even for today.. despite raining still headed down to get you ur fav dish... in the end.. you didnt even finish one third.. and left it there... fine.. I'm not gonna bother bout u anymore.. it's up to you.. if you wanna rot urself like that so be it... i'm out of it.. had enough of you..

Is there love? NO.. I dun feel any.. Is there concern? Perhaps in the past..
you simply just know how to complain bout things.. think about urself.. and never care less bout how ppl will feel... I wont dig up the past issues.. 

for now.. I conclude... There's no care.. no love.. and never will... My heart is dead towards you.

I guess only my sis will understand me..

My back no longer ache as much..
BUT... fever is back haunting me...

Grr... totally lost appetite...
actually there's so much I'm craving for.. but I guess I have to endure... :(
ohh... fever.. can you please dun come and haunt me...?
and my tummy is throwing tantrums... :S
Went home straight after school to catch some rest..

but anyway.. enough of the complaining and whining..
I think God heard my prayers..and granted me..(:
Thank you so much.. :D

well.. that's what have been keeping me happy and alive for the pass 2 days..

I seriously think that Fate is reali playing tricks on us...
Life is reali reali soo unexpected...!!
I know there are things which I need to bare in mind. (:

Who says Fairy Tales only exist in the Story Books... I'm Having mine~!
In any case, just follow the direction where your heart leads you to~!!