i am alright..but somehow...the smile on my face isn't really from the
bottom of my heart anymore...cos feeling kinda useless that I cant do anything....
his no longer that him...I mean like somehow the smile he's having now isn't the same as the smile he previously had...felt that though he's smiling..but deep down there's still something bothering him..i know what is it..yet I couldn't do anything...this kinda sux...no matter how hard I tried..
I still cant really cheer him up...seeing him like that I felt lousy...lousy that I cant help him, cant really make him smile, cant do anything....being able to sense his thoughts and feelings wasn't something that I did it on purpose..but just that those thoughts and feeling would come to me naturally.. it was kinda heartbreaking when you said that I keep giving you that look with that ke lian face trying to make you tell me.. I really wasn't.. I wasn't trying to make you tell me what's on your mind..but it was just that I really dunno what I can do to make you feel better cos I know you're not feeling good...just really cant help it looking at you like that.. and I remembered that you said you hate that look and was kinda annoying.. I didn't mean it.. so I tried avoid lookin after that... I know you didn't want me to worry...but I even if I dun worry...I still wont have the mood to drag you with me shopping when I can feel that you're not right...but I guess I cant say anything ba...if you dun want me to know anything.. I'll try to pretend that I didn't know...but I wouldn't be happy I guess...**sigh** what can I do........