**sigh** sometimes I jus dunno what to do with him..
sometimes I jus dunno which side of him is true..
jus reali dunno what I shld trust
If what he said was true...
It would mean that my feelings were somehow being cheated..
On the other hand...
If what he said wasn't true...
Then why am i always seeing those conversations of him n her so often...??
Are you sure it was really like what u explained to me..?
**sigh** No matter which side of u i choose to believe in..
somehow i'm still like being bluff and cheated in some ways...
The you now is so different...
Until this very end then you see the fact that i won't always stay there..
And until now then I finally woke up...
Feeling that I've been giving in to you too much that you no longer sense what I want and need..
It was true that I'm very willing to change anything for the sake of you...
And the fact was that I did gave up many things for you...
But...why did things still turn out to be like this...
Seems like you have totally forgotten everything..
Forgotten that after all I'm still a girl that needed care and love...
All you did was to ask me to change this and that..And you kept giving complains...
Do you reali know how i feel...
Were you there when I reali needed you...and what were you doing then...
Right now at this very moment...then you start to feel regret...
But the feeling is no longer the same anymore...
But jus at this very moment when I finally decided to leave...
You're trying to make up everything...
Why do you always like last minute stuff...
And..
How much do you think you can amend...
If only you've realise all these earlier...
You want me to be what i used to be....
But...
Seriously..It's hard..
So...I'm so lost now...What shld I do...Which reason shld I believe in....
I reali dunno...
**sigh**
